Life now is busy with work and family stuff but still lonely. I keep looking at my phone hoping that some guy would call. I'm bored enough that I would talk to anyone..doesn't matter. Just need to hang out with the other gender to relax and have fun. It make me thing that i'm def. sad and pathetic.
Even after the Egyptian guy, I thought someone I clicked with. I called him "Noodles" cze he liked noodles (or i liked noodles)...lolo Although our conversation was great..that man was horny!!!! I wouldn't jump in bed with anyone on our first date or 2nd date or even 3rd. I say man he to earn what they get! Long story short...the man is history. Now 6 weeks after breaking up i haven’t gone out, not because I’m depressed or sad. I'm just tired. I'm tired of the game...running after men. I just want a relationship that fits, that is easy and comfortable. NO DRAMA!
Today I went online where my profile I created last year. I emailed a guy say “hi” (don’t know how he looks like) and u know what! He emailed at the “hi”….I saw so happy. I have hope but it hurts too much to try now.
What should I say to him? Do I tell my name? Do I make a joke?
Is anyone out there?
Friday, April 16, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Egyptian Break up!
So I broke up with the Egyptian guy...my god that took forever! I kept telling that i could be his friend but nothing else and he kept telling how "good" he was. Of course then at the end of 40 min. conversation he tells me " I'll delete your text messages and your number so i couldn't have to look at it!"
6:33AM Sunday morning he texted me! What happened to deleting my number?
I emailed finally this guy i think so so so cute!!! I bold and straight out asking him out for coffee. Now why do guys get away asking a girl out via email but i can't?
It's so not fair!!!!!
I rarely like guys...maybe 1 or 2 guy a year. So when i like a guy..it's bad. I'm totally in puppy love all the time. I love and i hate it.
Once again, now i'm searching for guys because I'm so bored! My god! I work, go the gym, do house stuff, hold 2-3 social events but I'm still bored!
I might as well give up looking for Desi guy, who isn't a jack ass or player boy.
6:33AM Sunday morning he texted me! What happened to deleting my number?
I emailed finally this guy i think so so so cute!!! I bold and straight out asking him out for coffee. Now why do guys get away asking a girl out via email but i can't?
It's so not fair!!!!!
I rarely like guys...maybe 1 or 2 guy a year. So when i like a guy..it's bad. I'm totally in puppy love all the time. I love and i hate it.
Once again, now i'm searching for guys because I'm so bored! My god! I work, go the gym, do house stuff, hold 2-3 social events but I'm still bored!
I might as well give up looking for Desi guy, who isn't a jack ass or player boy.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Complication in Desi Life
Let me start off by saying that my life is alittle complicated at time. I work, babysit, go to the gym 2-3 times a week, study, organize events for singles and more.
So yesterday..work is boring these days cze I'm waiting for permission to get all access to systems so i can do my job. basically i sit around half of the day waiting:(
So after work, i dragged myself to gym. I like running..i helps me clear my head.
I pushed alittle bit and got up to 5.7 speed with 1 incline. My goal is to reach speed of 10 miles per hour with 5 incline :)
After gym, i showered, had dinner and relaxed with my family with watching Enterprise and Leverage, my two favorite shows.
I been going out with this guy for 2-3 weeks. Let's call him the "Egyptian guy". We went out for coffee, to the mall, movies but I don't feel anything for him. More like when he put his hand on shoulder the other night, i wanted to RUN! but i didn't run because it was his birthday that day. So i told him on Tuesday night, that I'm not looking for relationship and i can be only his friend but that's it.
Ofcourse, he asks to see me to so we can talk in person and i agreed. I usually do the breakup in person but i knew the next time he would want to see me it would be for a couple of hours and if i wanted to breakup with him that would things award.
Anyway, I went out to coffee with him on Wednesday..pretty much normal talk and then just before i'm about to leave the tells me "I like you". Crap!
Last night i talked for good 40 min. and he told how me felt about me. He's nice, funny, educated, he works, he speaks Urdu (i love that fact), caring but I'm not attracted to him. (he reminds me of this Moroccan guy, i had 2 dates which and i wanted to run by the the end of the 2nd date from him). I feel bad comparing but i have very hard looking at the Egyptian guy without thinking of the Moroccan guy. Ah!
So i told him that i like as a person but I can be his friend only. If he's comfortable with that then i have no problem going out for coffee or lunch or dinner with him but he shouldn't have hope that I would change his mind. But i think the poor boy (26 yrs. old) still has hope i would change my mind.
Plus he got upset that, i would be going to girlfriend B-day party on Friday night and Saturday night i have family thing to attend to. He kept asking me to cancel my plans with my other friends and hangout with him. I mean Come On! I can't skip out a friend bday event and then family stuff. Seriously...
My priorities are...1) family 2) girlfriend 3) guy friends 3)him(Egyptian guy)
and ofcourse he wanted on the top of the priorities and i told that wans't going to happen.
After our talk, he texts me "You the kid, go to hell this weekend, but i will still like you"... look.
I want a Muslim-Sunni, Paki/Indian, Urdu/Hindi, Citizen/permanent resident of US, educated guy. I know that's alot! He can speak Urdu and write and religion matches but I'm not attracted at all and i felt that i should tell him upfront so I'm not leading him on but he doesn't seem to get it! ah!
What should i do? Never meet him? Meet him but smack him if tries to pull thing?
P.S. He has no family here in US and works too much so he doesn't have alot of friends.
P.S. I'm not the hugging, touching type person and he tries to hug me when he knows i get irritated.
So yesterday..work is boring these days cze I'm waiting for permission to get all access to systems so i can do my job. basically i sit around half of the day waiting:(
So after work, i dragged myself to gym. I like running..i helps me clear my head.
I pushed alittle bit and got up to 5.7 speed with 1 incline. My goal is to reach speed of 10 miles per hour with 5 incline :)
After gym, i showered, had dinner and relaxed with my family with watching Enterprise and Leverage, my two favorite shows.
I been going out with this guy for 2-3 weeks. Let's call him the "Egyptian guy". We went out for coffee, to the mall, movies but I don't feel anything for him. More like when he put his hand on shoulder the other night, i wanted to RUN! but i didn't run because it was his birthday that day. So i told him on Tuesday night, that I'm not looking for relationship and i can be only his friend but that's it.
Ofcourse, he asks to see me to so we can talk in person and i agreed. I usually do the breakup in person but i knew the next time he would want to see me it would be for a couple of hours and if i wanted to breakup with him that would things award.
Anyway, I went out to coffee with him on Wednesday..pretty much normal talk and then just before i'm about to leave the tells me "I like you". Crap!
Last night i talked for good 40 min. and he told how me felt about me. He's nice, funny, educated, he works, he speaks Urdu (i love that fact), caring but I'm not attracted to him. (he reminds me of this Moroccan guy, i had 2 dates which and i wanted to run by the the end of the 2nd date from him). I feel bad comparing but i have very hard looking at the Egyptian guy without thinking of the Moroccan guy. Ah!
So i told him that i like as a person but I can be his friend only. If he's comfortable with that then i have no problem going out for coffee or lunch or dinner with him but he shouldn't have hope that I would change his mind. But i think the poor boy (26 yrs. old) still has hope i would change my mind.
Plus he got upset that, i would be going to girlfriend B-day party on Friday night and Saturday night i have family thing to attend to. He kept asking me to cancel my plans with my other friends and hangout with him. I mean Come On! I can't skip out a friend bday event and then family stuff. Seriously...
My priorities are...1) family 2) girlfriend 3) guy friends 3)him(Egyptian guy)
and ofcourse he wanted on the top of the priorities and i told that wans't going to happen.
After our talk, he texts me "You the kid, go to hell this weekend, but i will still like you"... look.
I want a Muslim-Sunni, Paki/Indian, Urdu/Hindi, Citizen/permanent resident of US, educated guy. I know that's alot! He can speak Urdu and write and religion matches but I'm not attracted at all and i felt that i should tell him upfront so I'm not leading him on but he doesn't seem to get it! ah!
What should i do? Never meet him? Meet him but smack him if tries to pull thing?
P.S. He has no family here in US and works too much so he doesn't have alot of friends.
P.S. I'm not the hugging, touching type person and he tries to hug me when he knows i get irritated.
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